suicidal

i am in the level where i would kill myself anytime these days.

i've been checking out on google with some things til i found some insultments bout muslims. i felt GRRRRRR and it reminds me of some people who was so racist with me til now ); i think i need some alone moments to put myself up together. hmm i remember the other day, there this person who is a friend of my other friend and barely even know me and never even speak to me said tht That person hates me cause i am you know, bertudung. --- i said i was okay but i was terribly hurt inside. tht person was muslim it self. stupid right. maybe to some of you, it doesnt matter but it is to me. different people, different believings so, MYB people.

i am not blaming anyone fr this.

it upsets me, i'm losing my self-confidence in me.